I hope life is treating you well. I miss you beyond belief, but I know what happened between us was for the greater good. I know she treats you the way I wish I could. Blessings be upon the two of you, and those you surround yourselves with.
At night, while I lie in bed, I begin to think of the good memories we had together. All those late night video calls, when we would just stare at each other with those dumb smiles. You meant a lot to me. Actually, you meant the world to me. And hopefully, without sounding as if I am attacking you, I wish I would have had the chance to prove it.
We were young, and just a little dumb. And as I lay here writing this, I start to think of what might have happened if we had lasted to the present. I'm sure more memories would have been made, and more smiles would be wasted. Wasted isn't the greatest word choice, but is the most accurate.
I know what we had was tainted, and toxic to the both of us. I know that when it ended, although painful, it must have been for a good reason. I may wish that you were still around, and maybe one day you will be, but for now distance seems to be the answer.
I do still miss you. It's been two years and here I am - still wondering about you. But that is okay, because I have forgiven the heartbreak.
I hope that life is kind to you, and you find whatever you were looking for when you left.
the one you left behind